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    08 October

    心痛

    好久没有写了,似乎忘了。
    这些天一直在想一个问题,我的感情似乎透支了,在多支出一点我都会承受不了。但是我努力的回想,我究竟把感情支给了谁?支给了那里?想着想着泪流满面。想小妍了,在她身边总觉得踏实,不知道为什么?离开了她,我的心一刻也不能安稳,一直悬着。这是句实话。
    我不知道自己喜欢谁?有时候觉得很难过,但是不知道是为自己难过,还是因为别人而难过。我不愿意承认我喜欢谁?老是口是心非。完了之后会躲在被窝里哭,然后想一千种理由忘记,随着时间的流逝。
    我这两天想做个红娘,为自己喜欢的人,好像是?但是又好像不是。难啊!不过自己觉得这样很开心,但是觉得自己过后或许会后悔,所以徘徊。
    有时候想我是不是有点太伟大。觉得可笑,但是心痛之余没有别的,我现在不想喜欢别人,所以用力的克制自己,因为我喜欢的每个人都讨厌我。为什么不知道,所以只能做一些让他感到高兴的事情。好像是有点神经。
    或许我只能是这样的角色,为自己爱的人铺好红地毯,然后残忍的伤害爱自己的人。
    我还能干什么?
     

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    我也很想念你们,只是随着时间的流逝,地域距离的拉远,工作的压力 ,像我这种为了生存,为了一个自己都不知道的梦想四处打拼的人来说,思念也只是在夜深人静时候的梦魇中偶尔闪过而已!
    我已经麻木了,你透支了感情,我透支了思维和体力……
    我已经很少回忆我们曾在一起的那段日子。
    怕让自己不能自已,怕让自己产生今不如昔的挫败感!
    但是我相信一切都会好起来的。
    30 Dec.

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